Self-portrait in solitude, late January, #2

The dirty work is done; she retreats 
to the peak called Watch Tower,
cross-legged on the street
facing the Cathedral.
She listens for the downhill silence,
an echo
of upwindโ€™s childish joy:
Iodine, sun-daze, tumbleweed.
She devours heat and sound like a starved animal,
a flea gnawing on the hides of time.
Her thumbs ache and she thinks,
here, at last,
a pain that belongs.
A QR code unfurls into a webpage full of lies.
She remembers how to make a home,
how to keep a fire burning through the long dark eve.
Love and fear braided like sage
and carried beyond the mountain range,
from this coast to that,
where the sun sets just a little bit later.
She watches whoโ€™s here and she wonders
whoโ€™s been here, beneath the roses.
The ghosts of America, the barely not-consumed.
Three black cats,
buying suits for a wedding.
She curls up to protect her face, her stomach.
An old man nearby says to his companion:
โ€œWell, now that weโ€™re having lunch,
what do you think weโ€™ll do for dinner?โ€
A prayer for the life she couldnโ€™t afford to spare.
A prayer for her loverโ€™s wife.
A prayer for the body under the bridge
with the bullet through its head.
6-7-7-2.
She squints. โ€œItโ€™s only this far
on a map, thoughโ€”which direction?
Wish I knew.โ€

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